But I Will: An Origin Story

 Roughly 15 years ago, I was seeing a patient who lived at 110 percent output. His work  frequently took him around the world, and his mind and ambition always seemed to move faster  than his body, which had begun registering formal objections to the pace. 

 At the time, I was a partner in an independently owned, fee-for-service primary care clinic. We  were doing our best to provide thoughtful longitudinal care inside a structure that assumed  patients could keep returning to a physical office whenever I asked them to. 

 This patient was about to make it clear that he could not. 

 “I want to see you again in three months to make sure this plan is working,” I told him that day.  “Nope, I’ll be overseas by then.” 

 This was not an excuse. It was simply a fact. His life did not pause because his doctor wanted  to review a medication change or see how he was responding to treatment. That had been the  primary impediment to achieving any consistency in his care for years. 

 “How about we Skype?” he offered. 

 I told him no. Skype wasn’t HIPAA-compliant. 

 “Then let’s use FaceTime,” he said. “It’s end-to-end encrypted, and I’ll give you written  permission.” 

 I then said what had been so deeply inscribed into my physician brain that it did not occur to me  to question it: 

 “Your insurance isn’t going to pay for it.” 

 He cocked his head and looked at me with genuine bemusement. 

 “But I will.” 

 Though I can’t prove it, I’m pretty sure that during the five full seconds it took me to close my  mouth, the ground shifted beneath my feet. 

 “You will?” 

 “Dr. Annis,” he said, “I’m self-employed. Every time I have to get up from my desk, drive across  town, wait in your office, see you, drive to the pharmacy, and then drive home, I’m losing money.  You work for yourself, too. You know that if you don’t work, you don’t eat.” 

 The idea hamster in my brain started running so fast that the wheel fell off its stand and rolled  down the hall. 

 “Are there other people like you?” I asked. 

 He didn’t have to say anything. His face told me that my very existence already answered the  question. 

 Of course  there were other people like him. 

 There were people building businesses, traveling for work, raising families, caring for parents,  and trying to hold complicated lives together. There were millions of people for whom the  greatest cost of seeing a doctor was not the copay. It was the time consumed by everything  surrounding the visit. 

 There were millions of people like him—and like me. 

 The remarkable thing is that he was not trying to teach me anything about healthcare  economics. From his perspective, the equation was obvious. 

 But I had spent years inside a system that trained me to think first about what insurance would  permit and reimburse. I had gradually come to regard the restrictions of one payment system as  the limits of medical reality itself. 

 If insurance would not pay for something, then apparently it could not be done. 

 My patient did not share that assumption. His three ordinary words exposed it. 

 “But I will.” 

 He was not asking for more medicine. He was asking for medicine delivered in a way that  allowed him to participate consistently in his own care. By then, technology had made that kind  of connection routine almost everywhere except ordinary primary care. 

 And he was willing to support that care directly. 

 This was not initially a revelation about Direct Primary Care. I did not go home that evening and  write a business plan. I did not yet know what kind of practice I was imagining, much less what  to call it. 

 It was something more fundamental. 

 I realized that the constraints I had been living under were not laws of nature. They were simply  the rules of one particular game. 

 Without realizing it, I had accepted that the insurance company decided what kind of care was  allowed. He reminded me that the insurance company was not the only one entitled to decide  what care was valuable. The patient and the doctor could also have a say, but only if they  remembered it was possible. Together, we could decide what constituted valuable care, how it  should happen, and what kind of structure could support it. 

 My first experiment was called “The MD for Entrepreneurs,” essentially a concierge service for  world-hopping business owners whose lives rarely conformed to an ordinary medical schedule. 

 It didn’t take long for me to realize that inaccessible care was a problem shared by most people,  not just privileged entrepreneurs and independent doctors. That experiment eventually led me to  Direct Primary Care—what I lovingly call “blue-collar” concierge medicine—and, later, to  Unorthodoc. 

 But the business model is not the important part of this story. The important part is that one  patient looked at a limitation I had accepted as immovable and simply refused its premise. He  did not rescue me or hand me a finished solution. He merely showed me that I was still free to  ask a different question. 

 Not: 

 “What will the system allow me to do?” 

 But: 

 “What would make it possible for me to provide the care this person actually needs?” 

 That question has guided nearly every meaningful change I have made since. 

 The answers have evolved. The structures have changed. Each solution eventually reveals its  own limitations. But I have never again completely mistaken the rules of the current system for  the boundaries of what is possible. 

 That was the day my sense of powerlessness over my gradually eroding professional autonomy  ended. 

 It began with one patient, one bewildered expression, and three ordinary words: 

 “But  I  will.”